It feels weird being like this.
The situation is all too familiar.
Its like deja vù all over again.

Despite having people all around me telling me that I still have the strength,

I feel indifferent.

All these while I wrote about having the strength to go through those things,

it was a pack of bullshit I`ve spun.

When in actual fact,

it breaks me down to bits and pieces.

It eats me up inside, inevitably making me even more vulnerable than I already am.

Would I be able to float?

It feels like I`m treading the waters.
You don`t know how close I am to drowning.
You just don`t know when to quit, don`t you?

Aside the bad stuffs, I managed to watch a movie today on Mio.

*drum rolls*

The boy in the stripped pyjamas

Its a pretty sad movie, moved me to tears.
I have no idea why movies that has something to do with Germany during the Nazi regime interests me. Pffft.
I am not sadistic okay, its just interesting.
I still find the concentration camp horrible, and believe me, you can somehow feel their torture when you stepped into that place.
Though, it doesn`t look like one right now but the pictures would enough to make you flinch.
And their sufferings are vague to us.

Like I said, fasting month makes me wonder about things more than I am supposed to.
Hahaha.
Anyway, can`t wait for tomorrow.
Hopefully, it`ll work out.

Na`nightttttt, loves! (:

It means, "Seize the day"

Honestly, I thought that the phrase was pretty stupid.
We should plan for our future, ensuring that it would be as bright as possible.
Taking things day by day just seems a little too inappropriate, right?

But, something happened that proved to me otherwise.

We can`t honestly plan for true love and marriage right?
And we can`t even plan for our career, not in this economic crisis.
Taking things one day at a time would be a perfect way to clear our minds.
Get a new perspective of everything, like a fresh start.

We don`t know what is going to happen tomorrow.
We might not know if Death befalls on anyone of us or even the people closest to us.
They say, "You won`t know a good thing till its gone."
We only start to appreciate the littlest things in life only when we`re robbed out of one, yes?
Of course, there is a limit to how we`re going to enjoy before we aren`t able to.
But, you get the rough idea, right?
Reality would bite but let`s just live for the moment. (:


"Seize the day and place no trust in tomorrow"

-Adapted from Wikipedia


Okay, pardon me.
Fasting month brought out all the questions within me.
Yay, breaking fast is in a few minutes.
Cheers!

Its pretty irritating to have a plethora of voices in your head telling you to do this or that.
It seems like I`m back to square one right now.
Back to where I was June 2008.
Honestly speaking, it doesn`t feel as bad as it should be.

I need a break, to clear my thoughts and all.
But I have to wait till Hari Raya ends.
November, it is then.

Hopefully, it`ll fall through.
I think a break away from Singapore would do me a world of good.

I`m not looking forward for Hari Raya or my birthday month. Period.

For some inexplicable reasons,

I feel very much at ease.

I don`t know why, though.

That`s the way it is.

I`ve been slogging my ass out at home `cause my dad wants things to be done before the fasting month.

Which would be the day after tomorrow.

Tsk.

Oh well, I shall indulge myself in the chocolate milk sissy made and read my book quietly.

Cheers!

Happy pink family!

My sister, monstar and thyself.

Birthday monstar, all up and energetic. She loves balloons!

Tishkut and me.

Ballooooons!

Mia is super clever and adorable, y`know!

Cutting the cake. She was a tad bit cranky, though.

Birthday girl in the tutu skirt. Cute.

The oh-so cute birthday cake! Sinfully delicious too!

Okayy, some of the pictures are up!

Monstar turned one last monday, but, her rocking party was on Sunday!

She looks super fly with the tutu skirt and `em hot kicks.

Especially with the hot yellow convertible she received, didn`t even have to wait till she`s 18!

Hahahaha.

Anyway, food was super nice and thank god, I`ve got Hakim, Tishkut and Mia to entertain me.

Mia is super cute and very smart.

Monstar was cranky during the cutting cake part though, I guess that`s `cause there were too many people.

Hahaha, but she was okay after a nap and was chasing `em balloons.

Opening presents ceremony was cool.

The Juicy Couture swimming suit looks super cute and definitely, monstar would be the coolest kid in the pool. No doubt.

Hee.

Okay, that`s about it for Monstar`s first birthday bash.

Hahaha.

Happy belated birthday Nurnatasha bte Razmy!

I personally feel that my tagboard is full of cobwebs.

Tag, people, tag!

Pretty, pretty please. :D

Anyway, I`ve been too busy painting and cleaning up the house.

Its too tiring, really.

It feels like Hari Raya is coming a tad bit too soon, no?

Fasting month is only three days away.

I can`t wait for it to come `cause I get to shed some kilos and of course, save up.

But on a bad note, work + fasting = no go.

Oh well, I must resist all temptations, right?

Come to think of it, I think its pretty good that fasting month is coming.

I can tone down on the swearing. Hee.

Yes, no swearing for a month!

Challenging or what. Hahaha.

I`ve been reading fashion blogs during my free time.

`Cause I`m all out of shows since most of the tv series would be screening their next season in two weeks time, I think.

I`m really, really tempted to change my entire wardrobe.

Or at most, to buy loads of things.

Heh heh.

Well, shopping is any girl`s favourite therapy session.

I can`t wait to get new kick(s).

Steve Madden`s sandals are like a siren song, luring me in.

I saw a pretty pair of low wedges the other day at some random shop!

Plus, I want to get a harem pants too.

They`re really versatile and looks comfy!

Okay, too many things on my list!

Cash cash, where for art thou?

Okay, I think the lethargy is just about to kick in.

I shall read fashion blogs like a bedtime story, now.

Cheers, lovelies!

I don`t believe in luck or hope.

However, I do believe that everything happens for a reason.

But now, even that is slowly crashing and burning.

This is probably my mood swing talking.

But heck it, I feel pretty damn sick.

And I definitely don`t mean the viral kind.

This is, without a doubt, the most challenging month ever.

Will update more on Tasha`s birthday later. (:

I feel like venting my anger here, but I shall try to remain calm.

Oh well.

I think I`m quite accustomed to all these things.

I`m quite numb to the horrendous feeling, anyway.

So, it kills me to say that you don`t get to feel the satisfaction of bringing me down.

You may never will.

More on my semi-locked Lj alright?

Here comes the time whereby I wish Starbucks has a 24/7 delivery service.

I need my caramel macchiato badly.

Cheers!

I don`t actually know what to blog about.

I just feel like letting my fingers dance away on the keyboard.

Hahaha.

Oh yeah, I can`t wait for Time traveller`s wife to show in Singapore`s cinema!

The book is pretty nice, albeit draggy.

The trailer simply brought tears to my eyes!

Its definitely a must see, and of course, the book would be a better choice if you want a detailed version.

Hee.

I should probably sleep.

I`m having a writer`s block.

I`ll blog more tomorrow.

Na`night!

The surprise turned out well!

Albeit belated, we still had tons of fun and the girl didn`t suspect a single thing.

She thought we were going to my cousin`s chalet. Hahah!

I am glad that at least one of your birthday wish came through.

Y`know I love you, babe! :D

I drove myself crazy, running here and was pressed for time.

Plus, Nat was having a rough day and I was pretty scared that she wouldn`t want to go out.

But glad that she did, anyway!

Not many people were around when the girl came through the door, but, still it was a surprise nonetheless.

Food was awesome, especially the chicken wings!

Everything turned out pretty well and I am so glad that some of the old crew came.

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