Dear Anonymous

Tuesday, June 30, 2009, 11:00 AM

It has been two years.

I thought things ended a long time ago?

So, why do you still hate me like as if it happened yesterday?

Come on, Kamarulzaman.

Let`s finally settle this, once and for all.

, 5:32 AM

I want to blog about Hairi and Kabeer`s birthday pit.

But blogger is being sucha bitch into letting me upload the pictures.

Hahaha, I guess we`ll wait for another day, aye?

Okay.

More on my semi-locked Livejournal.

My tagboard is freaking dead.

Oh well.

If there`s no tags by end of the week,

let`s bid farewell to my tagboard okay folks?

, 3:08 AM

Yay to me!
I finally changed my blogskin and added a few touch-ups on my own.
All due to the boredom at home.

Anyway, since I have already made an effort to change my blogskin.
I have also decided to be a bit more cheerful in my posts.
And, if my blog skin is being an irritant of some sort, please do comment me on my tagboard.
The feedbacks are greatly appreciated.

Okay, I shall continue being a couch potato and watch my csi:miami.

Toodles! (:

Friday, June 26, 2009, 1:40 AM

I`d rather pull out the petals than wait for it to wilt,

`cause that`s how waiting for you feels like.

Too lazy to update.

Probably a proper one soon enough.

Thursday, June 25, 2009, 8:25 AM

Kay, shut up. I`m in love with this song.
And of course, Pasha. Ohhhh, his voice makes me knees go all jelloid. HAHAHA.
I don`t understand why people find it weird that I do not listen to malay songs (eg. malaysian/singaporean kind of malay) but I listen to Indon. Oh well, I prefer indon songs/singers.
I got a majority of indon blood what, right? HAHAHAH.
Okay, I should probably stop yapping away about indonesian blood lah.
Full day full day. I have not recuperate enough from my cousin`s wedding.
I`ve been a lil crazy nowadays. Too tired = Hyper.
Luckily Natasha not around. Otherwise, I`d be crazier yknow.
Okay, I want to sleep and I`ll falling ill. Dang.

BYEEEEE.
I LOVE LALA! :D

Thursday, June 18, 2009, 11:09 PM

Yay yay, Freddie is finally back! Hopefully I won`t be too busy to snap photos with Freddie for the busy weekends. Hahaha.

Okay, things are looking up a little bit. Hopefully it stays that way. I gave you my word and I am going to do all that I can to keep it. I won`t disappoint you anymore. That`s a promise. But you have got to take a leap of faith in me.

Anyway, I am supposed to take my Baju Kebaya at Joo Chiat right now.

But I`m a tad bit lazy. AHAHAH. I`ve got to head over to work after that too.

Curse whoever that didn`t come today. Pfft.

Okay bye!

Tuesday, June 16, 2009, 8:07 AM

I know I shouldn`t let shit get to me but I just can`t help it. What a certain someone said hit me right in the head. Its hard to actually ignore it when its right in your face. I screwed up many many times in just a couple of weeks. I screwed things up so badly that somebody got something that they didn`t deserve. Just because I made a silly mistake, one pathetic mistake. I should have known better. I should have been a bit more smarter. I don`t know what to do next. I don`t know what I should or should not do anymore. My confidence got totally shattered this week. I can`t handle this anymore. I know that some are probably joking but I can`t help it. I really feel incompetent. I know I shouldn`t let this kind of things get to me, but its far too difficult. Alot of shit has happened. The people that I used to look forward to there ain`t around or ain`t talking to me. The whole situation feels different. It just doesn`t feel the same. I don`t feel competent or confident at all. I feel like I`m stupid and useless. Sigh.

Thursday, June 11, 2009, 8:44 AM

You fucking made me lose my appetite.

You fucking wasted their time cooking for me.

You fucking wasted my time `cause everyone knows I have a target on my back right now.

You should just go and die, right about NOW.

Can people just stop blaming me?

Fine, I admit that its my fucking fault.

I shouldn`t have agreed to let them to do and in the end, I caused them alot of things.

I know, I`m the one who should have been hit.

But seriously, I am only human.

I am only 18. What do you fucking expect from me?

Do you guys want me to screw up and seal the deal like some kind of redemption?

I am tired of all these and I have no idea why am I putting myself through hell.

I am tired of people accusing me of this and that.

I know that I should have known better but you guys don`t need to rub it in.

Fuck. I am beyond tired.

Wednesday, June 10, 2009, 9:40 AM

What the hell is your problem?

If you have got issues with me,

then say it out.

Monday, June 8, 2009, 9:11 AM

I MUST NOT BREAK DOWN!
I MUST NOT BLOW UP!

Fuck, work is seriously driving me up against a wall.

One thing after another.
Honestly, can someone just give me a goddamn break?

Friday, June 5, 2009, 3:05 AM

My sister`s keeper trailer is awesome.
I can`t wait for it to screen in the cinemas.

Gosh, I bet I`ll tear up in the cinema.
Hahahah. Still can`t wait for it, though.

Tuesday, June 2, 2009, 9:48 AM

Today was the most horrid day ever.

Hands down, the most disastrous day I have ever had in my entire life.

Natasha, chill okay.

Yknow I`ll always help you out, even if shit happens.

Love you heaps, yo.

Afiqah, truckloads of thank you for your help tonight.

Really really appreciate everything.

Tan Nurulhuda, thank you also for helping out with the misunderstanding.

And clearing things out.

And lastly, to Zul.

For always helping me out when I`m in a tight spot.

Like just now.

Thank you so so much, yo.

Too tired, damn.