*takes a deep breathe*

Hey ya`ll, (:

Am freaking shagged right now, seriously.
My legs can break anytime, but just not tomorrow.
HAHAH, gonna make a trip with mimi to find Ann Siang Hill!
CB siak.

Anywaaaaays,
Went out with the whole family to celebrate Brother`s birthday in advance.
HAHAH, fuck he`s getting older and getting more on my nerves!
Headed to Plaza Singapura to grab a bite at Secret Recipe. (UGH)
Then Mommy went ballistic with the John Little Sale.
I swear that there were too many people, typical.
Went to Mark&Spencer to purchase some goodies as well as dad`s jeans & shirt.
YAY FOR CHOCO CHIP COOKIES! :D:D:D
Then, bought my Cotton On jammies for 10bucks! HAHAHA!
Ohhh, walked to Paragon and I`ve fallen madly in love with the Long Champ&Guess bags!
hahaha, Mommy decided not to buy me the Guess necklace. raaaaaah.
Ohwells, as long as I can get the Chanel earstuds, I`m one happy and spoilt kid. :D
Anyway, Nothing was interesting.
So they went home leaving me and sister to Borders to get our books.
HAHAH, we rushed like mad cos Kinokuniya is closing at 10pm and we were at Borders at 930pm!
Bought "A thousand splendid suns" and some other book.
YEAAAY, happykid also!

Bus-ed home.
HAHAH, damn sleepy.
kay, I wanna sleep in my new jammies! hehs. :D

Pictures will be uploaded as well as with tmr`s activities!

P.S. where the hell is Ann Siang Hill?! HAHAH!

HAHAHA, (:

I`m feeling rather happy although today started of badly.
First of all, I had a terrible blocked nose.
Plus fever and headache.
The sorching hot weather didn`t help one bit.
I swear I could`ve fainted if I hadn`t consumed any edible food/drinks.
Fever + already hot weather = Fainting anytime soon [HAHAH!]
I keep on telling Weiliang that I wanna die. LOL! :p
Work was, as usual, being a bitch.
I`m so tired lah of working already,
But too bad its not an option for me.
Grrrr, just have to suck it all in then.
Luckily Mimi made my day. HAHAH.
Thanks alot, yo!
Anyway, went straight home cos mommy bought me dinner.
Went onlined and editted a few pictures.

(:
A great way to end my day.
HAHAH, Thanks Mimi for making me laugh & smile. ^-^v

Hello there,

Things have been rather hectic this past few days.
Though it kills me to have to say this but,
I miss you.
Geeeeeee, akward-much.

Anyway, I forgot to post this up.

Last saturday, we celebrated Kak Sikin`s Belated Birthday as well as her Farewell Party.
It was kind of sad for me.
I was just starting to get close to Kak Sikin.
She has taught me the ropes on how to be an Acting Supervisor.
Teaching me which DM wants to know what kind of info.
She has taught me methods on how to operate the Carnival, shortcuts as what you called it.
She has also taught me how to speak up and stand up for my rights.
She has taught me alot of things,
things that can be put to great use in the near future.
It was sad cos we won`t be in contact anymore.

Let me just say that eventhough,
You pinch my nipples and embarrassed me. (HAH!)
You`ve been an awesome teacher.
Do take care of yourself okay? (:
You`ll always be in my prayer regardless where you may be.

Okay, this is a wordy post.

Dear ______ ____,
I miss you.
When are you gonna talk to me?
I don`t know what wrong did I do to you.
I`m just sorry.
Like all the other asses,
I thought you`d live through your words.
Guess I was wrong.

Cos when emotions defeat logic,
we tend to lose so fucking much.
-Anonymous

Hello folks.

Alrightey, I shall update with a monotone post.
Which is neither happy nor sad.
deal with it, kays?

So anyway, alot of things have been happening.
So to take my mind off things, I decided to hit Vivo with girlfriends.
Nad&Fatynn, I love you girls manymany okay. ^-^v
Went Jobhunting since me and Tintin are gonna be free for nearly four months.
Went to a couple of shops there and wrote several application letters.
Some were being a total bigfuck, seriously.
Shove a pole up your asses, people!
Anyway, we`ve got an interview at Ripcurl Pacific Plaza on Thursday!
Wish us luck okay?
But I still want that other job! *wishes extremely hard*

Window-shopped.
Ohh, updated my shopping list!
June pay, faster come!

• Green-squarish Bag from Animal
• Yellow hearts broadshorts from Animal
• Stussy cap
• Giordano Khakis
• Esprit Top
• DC shoes! (My size uh please!)
• Many many tops (HAHA, typical)

Okay done. ^-^v

I closed my eyes and count to ten,
thinking of reasons as to why you`re doing this.
I`m trying to think optimistic,
but optimism is slowly fading..

Tell me a reason why. please.
Before hope starts to fade away again.

I just wish to be somewhere peaceful.
I just wish to be somewhere where I can write without any distractions.
I just wish I could get away from all these nonsense,
and be somewhere nice that it`d seemed so surreal to be true.

I wish you`re here right now,
doing what you do best; assuring.

Dear Anonymous;

What about now?
What today?
What if you`re making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love had never went away?
What if its lost behind words we could never find?
-Chris Daughtry, What about now

And then you said;
Whatever that is lost, should remain lost.

So, How is moving on possible when you`re on my mind every single second?
Even the littlest things remind me of you.
We`re always affiliated, in one way or another.
Even in Nanyang, you`re somehow known by some of my mates.
How far must I go to really get away from you?

And no matter what, you`re always heavy on my mind.
Even when I`m too busy.
This is stupid, I know.
Everything seems too stupid right now.

What happened to forever?
What happened to "I`ll always be here for you" ?
What happened to "I`ll never let go until you do" ?
What happened to "I don`t want to hurt you" ?
What happened to "It hurts me to see you cry" ?
What happened to us?

ITS LIKE MOVING MOUNTAINS;

sometimes I wish I could just scream out whats been bothering me so much.
There`s no way to doing it, I know.
Blogging is the only way for me to somehow rant out my feelings.
I wish there was just some way for me to get away from everything.
It sucks not to know where you`re going.
Sucks even more when no one supports you.

Each day,
I try so hard to be what you want me to be.
But it fails.
It sucks when I hear you going on and on about how perfect others are.
Comparison may be a way to encourage, but sadly, no.
I feel so demoralised, through and through.
My shield that has been hiding my weakness is cracking,
succumbing myself to vulnerability.
I`m reaching to a point whereby I can just break down anytime.
Honestly, I`ve been trying super hard to be happy and nonchalant about everything.
I`m trying my best to be carefree and oblivious to everything.

I wish you could make it easier.
I wish you could be the one to help me through.
But then again, its like hoping against hope.
I would never win, everyone knows that.

No, I wouldn`t let another person get me through my weakness.
That was the final straw.
I`ve completely stopped believing in everything else that comes second.

I like how the clouds were trying to the envelope the moon,
leaving the world in utter darkness.
I like how the moon could still give out rays of light,
emanating an aura of mystery about living.
I like the way rain drops fall from the skies,
and how it never fails to make me realize things.

I am ashamed.
On how I`ve been going on thinking about myself.
When there are others out there,
in a worser state than I could have ever been.
I`m always self-absorbed, self-centered.
Ranting on and on about what could have been,
when there is no way of changing any of it.
I know I should embrace the past,
and hope the best for the future.
"Yesterday is History, Tomorrow is a mystery. Today is a gift, that`s why they call it present"
I only wish I was strong enough to accept and move on,
I wish I could be brave in embracing the past and forget about history.
I wish I could do the unthinkable,
I wish I was wondergirl.

Fate has never been kind,
so why should it start now?

Do you know that my heart would skip a beat,
whenever you`re near?
Do you know that your slightest touch would make me melt?
Do you know that your smile is etched in my memory?
Do you know that being around you is like a lift on top of a ferris wheel?

I miss you,
and yes, I`ve fallen for you.