My sister made me open up my eyes on New year`s eve. What she said made total sense and I guess, I`ve been pretty oblivious to that fact. It was only when she said it that I realised that she has been right all along. I guess I have been living in oblivion. She told me to stop bottling things up and pick myself up because no one would wait that long for me. I feel shitty when I think back about it but I guess, it hurts to be kind. I`ve gotta grow up one way or another. I know I can`t have the entire world at the palm of my hand. I need to stop acting like a kid and being all pampered. I need to stop pushing people away or being dependant on good company. I need to learn to be independent and be my own resource. I need to learn to be tougher and stronger than I am. I need to learn all that now. Because, I need to learn to pick myself up when I fall down again. But right now, I just need some time alone. From everyone.

"Everyone falls down. It`s just how fast you pick yourself up."