I`m sorry if I neglected this space of mine. I`m way more active in Tumblr and Twitter these days. I guess I`ll only update here if I`m bored or wanting to rant publicly. Ha.

So anyway, last week`s events got me thinking a whole lot deeper. Plus, the boys have been lecturing me about going drinking and all. It sure does irritate the hell out of me but I know they`re just concerned about my well-being. They`re nice like that.

I sure as hell don`t know what I`m trying to do. I`ve screwed up loads of things and everything is all so overwhelming.I shall not even touch on the affair of the heart `cause life is already complicated enough without it. But my friends reckon I need a boyfriend to ease my mind. Rightttttt, like that will ever help. I don`t know, most of the time I feel like I`m trying so hard to please everyone. If only I can split myself into two, three or four, that`d be awesome enough. I am trying so hard to do everything at once that it pisses me off when I screw things up. Prolly it`s my fault for wanting to do that in the first place, but, it feels like shit. I feel like shit. I don`t want to actually confide into anyone because I know everyone has their own shit to care about. I don`t want to be a burden and worry like I was last Saturday. It was all my fault and I`m really sorry if I worried you guys. See, I can`t even trust myself to not worry anyone.

Ah fuck it. I should prolly keep whatever`s in my mind stay up there.