I`ll always run and hide when it comes to love.

I`ll always look the other way when I feel like someone is actually getting close to my heart.

I have no qualms about being alone, but, I sure as hell don`t like being lonely.

Am I being cynical here?

Sure, I do want to have someone there for me. Having someone who cares about me and be there for me 24/7 would be a great thing. Having someone who knows when to back off if I`m having a bad day and to know when to come in if I need a shoulder to lean on. I want someone who makes me feel special and at the same time, doesn`t want me to change a single thing about myself. I want someone who can speak their mind even though it is going to sting me a little and willing to right my wrongs when it comes to my bad decisions. I want someone who is supportive and willing to sit down with me just to accompany me watch airplanes. I want someone who knows me well enough that they`ll know what is bothering me without having me to tell them a single thing.

Basically, I want someone who can break the wall around my heart and tell everything to without having to say anything.

But, the chances of that happening is close to impossible, no?