I know I shouldn`t let shit get to me but I just can`t help it. What a certain someone said hit me right in the head. Its hard to actually ignore it when its right in your face. I screwed up many many times in just a couple of weeks. I screwed things up so badly that somebody got something that they didn`t deserve. Just because I made a silly mistake, one pathetic mistake. I should have known better. I should have been a bit more smarter. I don`t know what to do next. I don`t know what I should or should not do anymore. My confidence got totally shattered this week. I can`t handle this anymore. I know that some are probably joking but I can`t help it. I really feel incompetent. I know I shouldn`t let this kind of things get to me, but its far too difficult. Alot of shit has happened. The people that I used to look forward to there ain`t around or ain`t talking to me. The whole situation feels different. It just doesn`t feel the same. I don`t feel competent or confident at all. I feel like I`m stupid and useless. Sigh.
