she watched as the whole world move by.
Is she the only one standing still?
Closely observing the evolution of other human beings.
Is she the only one unable to comprehend how vast life is?
Am I too slow?
Couldn`t I just take a hint and get lost?
But no, I`m always trying to think optimistic.
But now, its catching up to me.
Its fading away, bit by bit.
Am I the stupid one?
Like you, I also don`t get why do I have to hold on when you don`t care.
The past that I was trying to avoid has finally caught up with me.
I know I put you through alot of shit,
I hurt you many many times.
Do you know that this was what I was trying to run away from?
I`m sorry because I am not what you expected.
I am not like the girl you thought I was.
I`m sorry if I made life difficult by relating my problems to you.
I`m those kind of present people have been anticipating but when they rip it out, they just go "Oh, thank you."
Because I`m nowhere near the kind of "present" you wanted.
You said you want to forget about everything because you don`t want history to repeat.
You said that you`re scared that when you`re nice to me,
things would turn out the way we didn`t want.
Why didn`t you just say?
I could have taken it way better than this.
Are you afraid of hurting me?
Don`t worry, I doubt you can hurt me more than you`ve already done.
I think you`re reading this.
Well, everything is all out.
I`m glad that I`ve managed to have you as a friend through the ups and downs.
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