ITS LIKE MOVING MOUNTAINS;

sometimes I wish I could just scream out whats been bothering me so much.
There`s no way to doing it, I know.
Blogging is the only way for me to somehow rant out my feelings.
I wish there was just some way for me to get away from everything.
It sucks not to know where you`re going.
Sucks even more when no one supports you.

Each day,
I try so hard to be what you want me to be.
But it fails.
It sucks when I hear you going on and on about how perfect others are.
Comparison may be a way to encourage, but sadly, no.
I feel so demoralised, through and through.
My shield that has been hiding my weakness is cracking,
succumbing myself to vulnerability.
I`m reaching to a point whereby I can just break down anytime.
Honestly, I`ve been trying super hard to be happy and nonchalant about everything.
I`m trying my best to be carefree and oblivious to everything.

I wish you could make it easier.
I wish you could be the one to help me through.
But then again, its like hoping against hope.
I would never win, everyone knows that.

No, I wouldn`t let another person get me through my weakness.
That was the final straw.
I`ve completely stopped believing in everything else that comes second.