Dear Anonymous;


Just when you thought you got the whole world figured out,
it backfires on you.
I can`t help but feel weak, each & everytime.
That I`m so vulnerable to everything around me,
that includes the people too.
I know that running till I puke is stupid,
but I can`t control it.
No, I`m not trying to be aneroxic or bullimic.
But sometimes, running on an empty stomach does that.
I`m not trying to hurt myself, no.
I know better than to do that,
I`ve been through counselling remember?
I know what`s right and what`s wrong.
I`m trying my best to change, but its easier said than done.
I`m trying my utmost best to change, to be more sensible.
Its not easy, yknow.
Especially with my kind of surrounding at home.
I`m trying to enlighten people abt whats going on,
but its hard.
Cos what I want right now isn`t sympathy.
I just want that someone who can release me of my problems,
even if its only for awhile.
I want someone who can make me forget about my past,
what I used to do and stuffs.
God, this is killing me.
I got to be away from all this.


Till next time,
whenever that would be. ♥