Dear Anonymous;


Sometimes I wonder whats the use of thinking too much.
If all it does is make me unhappy and frustrated.
I had a cold shower to snap me back to reality,
it left me feeling refreshed.
I guess thats what a 3am shower plus crying-your-eyes-out would do.
I want to run till i puke, like what I usually do.
Sounds totally insane but no matter, I like physical pain better.
As in, its definitely way better than what I`m feeling right now.
Gaaaaaaah~ (x 10000000)
What sucks the most is knowing I could never do anything about it.
That I`d have to just grit my teeth and let everything else fall into place.
I`m supposed to be happy cos I`ve got great friends, a future if I do well and a job that I love.
At least, I`ve got a roof over my head & parents who still support me.
I guess, I think too much and that is never good.
Thoughts stuck in my head and it makes me wonder.
Running away from reality seems like the best option.
Surreal is definitely better.
Feeling numb is also another option.
I lost my happy pills, which explains why I`m feeling down.
I`ll keep looking for it.
& I'll be one heck of a happy kid in a matter of days.
(:


Its this kind of times whereby I`d need you the most.
You got me feeling lost & confused.